Sleepswimming

"You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try." - Beverly Sills

As a college student, you get to the point where you can't think anymore.

This usually happens in the final three weeks of school (like we are in now) and only accelerates in urgency and voracity as the days slip by.
Poor seniors have this disease times a million, for they move on to becoming "real adults", not just a summer and then another year of school.

If you are a college student like me (attention high school students: please hear me - I thought I was busy a year ago at this time...no, no. I was mistaken. I don't want to scare you, I really don't. But prepare now. Don't think you can go off to college and have fun all the time. DO NOT GET SUCKED INTO THAT DELUSION. PREPARE NOW.) you feel like you are being tossed about in a sea of assignments, drowned by tidal waves of reports, labs, essays, and the list goes on and on.

At least that is how I feel.
Drowned and brain dead.

I am so pitiful, I have forgotten to pray for an opportunity to act kindly.
Yes.
I have failed.
I have not done this every day like I wanted.
But sometimes, a report unfortunately takes precedence over happiness.
Isn't that sad?
Seems unjust and wrong.
So after this literal hell of "Hey fellow professors, let's kill the students!" is over,
I PLEDGE TO BE MORE FAITHFUL WITH THIS MISSION.

Please bear with me as I try to swim for my life.

And by the way, I am so glad I don't have to do this alone.
I have a Best Friend that wants to help me, and be with me every stroke of the way.

"It is impossible to get exhausted in work for God. We get exhausted because we try to do God's work in our own way." - Oswald Chambers

Sensory Overload

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may life you up in due time." - 1 Peter 5:6, 7

Today.

Today, my ears were temporarily deafened
by a decibel chart-shattering, eardrum ripping, sanity splitting
scccccccrrrrrreeeeeeeeeecccccccccchhhhhhhhhh
by a broken door leading into the student center.
This was nails on a chalk board times 50,000.

And then I went to a convocation by a talented guitarist.
But I had the misfortune of looking up at the giant, 3 million watt bulb
lights for no reason.
And was soundly blinded for a moment or two.
When vision returned, everything was clouded, whirling, and surreal.
It didn't take long for my eyes to snap back to normal...thank goodness.

What a day.

Then it occurred to me that the presence of God may be something like that.
Except minus the unpleasantness.
And adding in gloriousness.
...
This was a bad analogy.
But WHATEVER.
It makes sense in my head.

So anyway.

God's presence KILLED PEOPLE.
One guy just touched something the Lord had dwelled in, and he dropped dead!
Elijah was allowed to see God as He passed a cave, but God had to partially block his vision so Elijah wouldn't die!
Just gazing on Him is death!

Makes me feel like a sinful piece of flotsam.

I don't know why,
but for some reason that Holy and marvelous God
gave us His Son.

"Though our feelings come and go, God's love for us does not." - C.S. Lewis

Word Vomit

"No one is as deaf as the man who will not listen." - Jewish Proverb

So.
Hey.

Haven't blogged in a little while.
And I finally have something to say.


STOP
THINKING
YOU
KNOW
EVVVEERRRYYYYTTTHHHHIIIINNNNGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Count to 10, Rachel. Count to 10.


Some people think they are doing the world a favor by lending their endless knowledge
to those of us who are, according to them, "un-enlightened"
as to their brilliance, and smirk at the notion that a person could
possibly know something they don't.

STUPID ELITISTS.

Lame.
Lame.
Lame.
Lame.
Lame.

Our job, as Christians, is not to go around telling everyone what we think we know.
It is to LISTEN.
That means ceasing running our mouths.
For once.

Sheesh.

So next time you feel the urge,
that sickening, twisting, unsettling impetus to tell a person all about your "extensive" knowledge,
just put a cork in it and listen to what they have to say.
WHAT A NOVEL IDEA!

Maybe, EVEN YOU, will learn something.

That goes for all of us.

"Never miss a chance to shut up." - Will Rogers